I Think I Can

Can you tell I'm feeling better? Huh, can you?

I'm getting nervous about tomorrow. I am taking my four kids with to gymnastics so I can help MFN's kiddo. Then CJ's friend is getting dropped off there, and we're going to the zoo. 5 kids by myself at the zoo is fine, but on a SATURDAY??? I'm starting to think there's somewhere less busy to be with children. How bad do I want to pet those zoo babies? I am not sure I want to pet them badly enough.

Does anyone who does daycare actually THRIVE in this enviornment???? I mean, are there people out there that finish their day and feel fulfilled instead of like they just got the life sucked out of them? Oh we play cames and color and paint, and have snacks and eat and change diapers and AS YOU SEE I catch a few minutes here and there to do something un poop related. While I don't dread the days at all, I do count down til Friday, and I have found myself very protective of our time on the weekends. I don't WANT extra kids here on weekends. I want MY OWN FAMILY who has gotten the shaft all weekend while I'm taking care of everyone else's kids, ya know? Interesting. Or not. hahahah!

$700 for my weekend with the elephants isn't really so bad. Cullen isn't excited to do it, but doesn't believe me that I'll do it on my own. Why wouldn't I? He thinks I wouldn't want to cause I'd be there with a bunch of people that I wouldn't know that well, but it's not about the people, to me. It's about the elephants! And really, what kind of people would I be worried about meeting there? Some thugs? Come to hang out with the elephants? Um...no. I think I'm as extreme as I'll find there and if I find anyone even close to how I am, I'll be in good company, right? ;) *I* will be the irritant there. But can I make it make sense to spend that much money on MYSELF???????? That's like me taking off on a vacation, just me. Not Cullen. That's a plane ticket and hotel room. Not sure....but I am going to find a way to make it okay. It's not like I am asking to go out with a bunch of girlfriends for a weekend to be as irresponsible as possible. I want to go make out with elephants. :)