Grace

Okay, I have to practice being graceful. I am going to have to be graceful under the firestorm that will be Sunday.
Here's the thing- i get it that it isn't REALLY about me, or the kidney chain. Our story might help inspire someone to donate a kidney themselves, or make a pledge. We are being worked. And I get that the way it's set up with help someone see what a non directed donation can do. And I'm emailing the other donors to make sure they know how much I honor their journeys and feel like they did all the work- they were emotionally involved WAY before I became a donor.
Then I have to practice being graceful.

I know a donor who is to receive a medal, and he's considering not going at all. I COMPLETELY understand why he doesn't want to go. No matter what ANYONE SAYS, no donor goes into this for the praise. That's like saying surrogates do it for attention. There are so many easier ways to just get attention. Have you ever tried to compliment someone and they keep blowing it off? That is THE most irritating thing ever- EVER. Shut up and say thank you. You know? It's a gift to the person who is giving the compliment to receive it gracefully. This is the place I have to be in. It might just be a script to the people at NKF, but it means more to the people who were involved and I cried embarrassed and "Oh. My. God." tears and now I just will have to suck it up and learn grace FAST.
UGH.