First of all- what a gross day. I love you AS, for completely understanding my post and saying what you said. I kind of want to hire an acoustic guitar player to come and play and whisper what you posted to me softly all day. :)
I just made Jordan and I a kick butt ham and cheese omelet. And now we're about to make some home made crusty bread that will go quite nicely with the tomato basil soup I'll be making. Who needs Panera when I have my chef hat on?
Okay, onto The Challenge. And it really, really is a challenge for me, which you already know, so let's look at it. Cullen's aunt has asked if she can send me some stuff that SHE believes. She's Catholic.
*sigh*
My initial response is "no, thank you" because we all have heard me say 20 time here that I DON'T NEED SAVING. I'm very happy that she has a faith that she believes in. And follows. That's lovely, for her. I don't need saving.
Why is she having this discussion with me? I think that's what I need to ask her. Maybe that is exactly what I will ask her.
The challenge is to let people say their piece and not make them "wrong". It isn't what is true for me, but it is true for her. That's okay. Maybe if I stop feeling like she's trying to convince me of something it will be easier to hear. Would I actually read it? OHHH that's the BIGGER challenge. Would I read it and shake my head and have the look on my face that you can imagine? YES. Is that fair? I guess it all depends on ...? I'm just fine where I am. I guess I just need to ask her why she's engaged in this conversation with me. If anything interesting comes out of this, I'll post it.
I'm NOT done growing or learning/remembering. But having religion pushed on me is just more than I'm good at dealing with. And I'm not nearly as ready to deck someone as I was yesterday, for this to feel "fun".
Okay, here goes. Happy dreary ass miserable Thursday.
Oh Nicki, I know exactly how you feel toward your aunt. I have the same issue with my mother (who is also Catholic) I took what most people probally consider the cowards way out. I fake the funk around her. But there is a reason for it. Not only have I avoided the constant hounding of conversion. But the deeper reason is that I know that her belief is that if I DON'T believe what she does my immortal soul is damned. And that would crush her. It is easier for people who believe more like me and you believe to accept others beliefs because our beliefs allow for it. While there's don't. So I fake the funk...to a point. She knows I don't like organized religion but still thinks me a traditional christian as far as my beliefs go. I fake it enough to keep her from hurting. Not only that but I live down the street from her so...Anyway I am not saying you should do this. If you want to fight the good fight of tollerance and acceptance then I commend you. This is just the path I choose. I on the other hand fight for gay rights LOUD AND PROUD to my opposing mother. Hey, I pick my battles. The God thing means more to her so I let her win. But the Gay Rights thing means a lot to me so FIGHT ON!!!
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