Not, not sexually, but just as important! Oh, you're disappointed? Fine. Quick overview...I was WAY too young (it almost makes me barf in surprise with how young I was now), there were at least 3 other boys in the room, playing nintendo, it hurt, and it's the first time I learned how to go somewhere else in my head while things I didn't like were being done to my body. Make sure your kids know how to say to to people, peeps. No good.
Back to the good one. This is SO IMPORTANT to me that I should be outside on the rooftops yelling it.
Running is sorta doing something for me...makes me feel a certain way. Last night I went to run, and the cards were stacked against me. I barely ate a thing all day, and what I did eat was cake and a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich. I don't feel good. I was excited to run all day but got down there and within the first 2 minutes, it just felt so HARD. I got off after beating myself up mentally faster than anyone else can hurt my feelings and burst into tears. All that happened in 2 minutes time, and that might be generous. I went into the laundry room and thought "I'll just throw a load in and fold some clothes and I'll be okay." but I was pacing in there, because part of me wanted to go get back on the treadmill and NOT let my own self get to me like that. I knew it would be okay to take a day off, but it isn't like I run THAT far. I know this colds getting me, but I know that i feel better after I run.
Didn't work. More mad tears. Went upstairs to find Cullen playing Bingo with the kids. Cute.
CJ was the first one who said "DO IT ANYWAY!" And Cullen said the things he was supposed to say. I took it in, and said "Okay, I'm going to give it 5 minutes. If I'm still a wreck at 5 minutes I'll stop."
I got on. Ipod ON. I decided I'd walk for half the song. Then I ran the 2nd half. I kept doing that, through I don't know how many songs. I didn't look at the calories, or the distance. Julia came down at one point and I had her throw me something to cover it up with so I could stop trying not to look. I accidentally hit RESET when I did that anyway so I have no idea.
I DID IT. I BEAT ME. FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, IN REGARDS TO THIS, I BEAT ME! I GOT OVER MY HEAD! I DID IT ANYWAY! I POWERED THROUGH! AND IT WAS OKAY! The mean talk stopped as soon as I just walked for half a song. My lungs didn't kill me with the crap that's in them. My legs weren't begging me to rest, they wanted to GO. It was FANTASTIC. Absolutely, totally and completely. I DID IT. (and it beat my other "first time" by....everything.)
Happy Friday.
yes! THIS is what running does for me. makes me press through it. congratulations nicki, i see you've found the power of running.
ReplyDeleteThat was totally what I was going to recommend when I first started reading this post... Totally a good idea to walk when you need to- good to warm up your muscles and to give you a break between bouts of running. That's what I do when using the treadmill. I walk five minutes then run five minutes. That way I end up doing thirty minutes of walking and thirty minutes of running- but if I had to try to do thirty minutes of straight running I would get frustrated and give up.
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