Apple Straws

ROCK. They are YUMMY!
So I'm having this discussion with Cullen's aunt about religion. This is the hardest discussion for me to have, and she's probably one of the only people who I'd even trust to have it with. So far it's going really okay! So far. She's not one to judge openly, and she asks questions, and I answer as carefully as I can so that I don't inavertantly (SP!!) sound judgemental either. I can't spell for shit when I have to pee as badly as I do.

I've also got a head start on whatever it is I'm writing, WITH CULLEN'S BLESSING- YIPPEE!! I quote "You'd better keep writing if we have plans to take off in 9 months!" I told him I might have to write at night then, and he said he didn't mind as long as we still had some time together. Then we looked at more RV's and I emailed a couple of people and got some replies. I'm learning what I prefer---like one of them has double bunk beds for the kids, and the other doesn't, and I want that for them. I also decided that we could wait til the middle of January to go, and then come home at the end of February, only needed 6 weeks off for Cullen. It's their slow time and although he's their only other full time employee cept for Jason, the owners son can step in next year when they lay Cullen off so we can go.

I'm also learning a load about insurance. Kinda. It's still made easy for me, by his work offering a pretty sweet deal.....I dislike the Fear Factor in all of it. We don't go to the dr that often other than the yearly bullshit, but WHAT IF??? I hate living under the WHAT IF's in life. It irritates me to no end. I don't wanna...

I had another reminder last night of how desperately horrible it's going to be when my mother in law passes. She was the very best most comforting go between between Kimmy and I last night and I simply don't know what I'll do without her. She did daycare for so many years, and she's the all time best fall back and she's the perfect blend of guiding without putting anyone down. She loves that Kim and I love eachother so much and she loves both of us so much, and I had a moment of panic after the phone call, the "*F*CK I'm going to hate when she's not here..".

The sun is out for the 2nd day in a row. It's cold and nasty outside but I don't care. I'm taking babysteps. Cullen decided he isn't going to get licensed with me right now, but that I still should, for the tax breaks if nothing else. I have to send my pile of paperwork in and set up appointments and crap. I have to do it TODAY. I WILL do it TODAY. I am GOING TO DO IT ALL TODAY. Right after lunch, after my Angie leaves. I can't wait to hear all the Regis gossip.
LALALALALALA Today ROCKS.

Hey, I went 3 miles yesterday. Right, that's not all that far, but it is for eating disordered girl who has been running for 2 weeks straight with no breaks. My knee was slipping all over the place so I had to walk the last 4 blocks or so but whatever. I did it. I totally and completely ROCK, and I LOVE my ipod. I run away from people, I run to people, I run, run, run, run, and it feels GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD.
RUN, FORREST, RUNNNNN!

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I start a revolution from my bed
'Cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows, if it's night or day.
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock 'n Roll band
and throw it all away

Gonna start the revolution from my bed
'Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside cos summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by.
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

And So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late and she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger, don't look back in anger
I heard you say

At least not today.