Friday, February 11, 2011

Save Me, San Fran

Okay. Game face on. Can't seem to ingest enough coffee to make me fly today. Didn't sleep very well for some strange reason. Doing my normal "slam as much in in the morning as I can before hitting the wall"- got all the winter decorations down "They AREN'T CHRISTMAS!! Clearly, they are WINTER!!!" Samantha, Ethan, Caiden and I are ready to lay down. :) It's 9:05.

Will dust. Will feed Caiden. Am playing peek a book with Ethan.
It's Friday. Caiden came. Kimmy found out how much easier it is to get anything done without the kiddo around, especially work.
My candles which shouldn't be lit but are smell heavenly.
I need spring. Tomorrow, it will be spring. My favorite Mike Fairbourne PROMISED me that tomorrow it will be 40. Cullen says maybe we'll run outside, maybe at woodlake. He has the itch to get out too and wants to do something fun tonight- he went from going out to eat and bowling to getting a room at a casino---how will THAT be fun for the kids? No way. I make fun of people who bring their children to casinos...how desperate do you have to be to do THAT?! But maybe a hotel for the night? That would be fun.

I think I have an emotional hangover from my friend, actually. Isn't that weird? Do I really visit other people's energy so much that I can catch their emotional hangover? Nik- does this happen to you? How do you prevent it? Did I tell you that one of the people in the chain is going to school to get her degree in bio energy work???? I think I did.

So CJ came home with a 61% on his Core Knowledge test on Middle Eastern Europe. His teacher made me sign it and he'd written a sad face on it. So I emailed him to find out how I can help support CJ with Core Knowledge. CJ admits that he isn't that interested in what they are forced to learn and this is where he has me because my SKEWERED view of education is that we waste a whole lot of time shoving shit down their throats that doesn't matter to them right now. Honestly. What 9 year old gives a shit about the London Bridge and who built it? Present that to them again in 20 years and you might get their attention, but right now? Right. It's such a waste. Already we teach them to memorize and purge and forget. So f*cking stupid. I HAVE to home school. I have to. I hate this cycle. I can barely care about his 61%. Cullen is more rational, of course, and wants CJ to apply himself more. So the school fight begins? I don't know. One thing that I know FOR SURE is that if we were to VISIT a place, a museum, and we took 2-3 hours there, looking and reading and learning and touching and seeing and were totally surrounded by it, and then after that read a book having ANYTHING to do with what we'd learned (fiction or otherwise)...well, give them a "test" then and you're going to get something back, and it'll be more than 61%. Stupid ass education system.

I suppose you want to know how I REALLY feel about it. HA!

This weekend= RV show, and a trip to 50th and Penn for some shoes for my boats. Can't wait!

1 comment:

  1. It's actually a huge problem that massage therapists, social workers, psychiatrists, etc., face all the time. How do you deal with someone else's energy and emotional stuff without taking it on yourself?

    It's a hard thing to do. Partly you just have to mentally set boundaries for yourself. Tell yourself that you won't let it get to you. Or picture a version of yourself that is outside of yourself and have that self be the go between between you and other people so that the negative stuff gets stopped there instead of coming into you. There are different things that work for different people.

    For a lot of massage therapists, since we work with our hands on people, we will brush the energy off.So you would take your right hand and start at your left elbow and brush down from your elbow to the tips of your fingers with your right fingers. Then repeat with your left hand on your right arm. When your hand get to the end of the arm, you take both of your hands and flick them away from you as if you were trying to flick off some drops of water. This is a way of cutting the connection between their energy and your energy so that you don't carry around their emotional baggage all day.

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