Decisions

From "God" today:

On this day of your life, Nicki, I believe God wants you to know...

...that not to decide is to decide.

Letting something go until it "decides itself" is Life

by Default. You don't want to live that way. So

choose. Choose right now.

Stop worrying about what you can "lose" or how you

can "win" and just follow your joy. Where does your

joy say you should go?

Right ON! That's how we get ourselves in trouble, and we start feeling like we're reacting instead of creating. Take CHARGE! You're not STUCK! Everything is possible. Don't be afraid. Fear is the only thing that holds most of us back. Fear NOT! Go on. Look for a new job. A new house. A new idea about yourself. Rearrange a room. Go somewhere that scares you. If you don't decide...life will. FATE= From All Thoughts Everywhere. If YOU don't decide, the world consciousness will, and I don't know if you've noticed, but as a whole...it's sketchy and you never know what you're gonna get. MAKE A DECISION AND GO FOR IT.

I made another blog. I know- how can i POSSIBLY have any more to say than I do here? But here's the thing- this one is FULL of me. FULL FULL FULL. It's straight Nicki Word Vomit. It's embarrassing to me to let people read this because they get to know my insides straight away. I'm unfocused (as I'm allowed to be here), I'm a bratty brat (as I'm allowed to be here), sometimes downright righteous (and not in the good way, like Crush shouting RIGHTEOUS! RIGHTEOUS! as they took off in Nemo)....you know? So I made a prettier one, for warrior mommies. Also, someone who is much wiser than me in the way of book publishing and getting OUT THERE mentioned it might not kill me to be a little more OUT THERE (just when we thought I was as far OUT THERE as I could get, right!) Anyway. It's at iamawarriormomma.com

Go play there.

Have you been on damnyouautocorrect.com yet today? Freakin GEMS. I'm crying. My sister sent em because she's crying too. SO DAMNED FUNNY! "Your mother and I are going to divorce next month." "WHAT? WHY? WHAT??? CALL ME!!!" "I meant DISNEY, we are going to DISNEY next month." HAHAHAHAH!!! Awesome.

Cullen is on his way home. Driving. Sometime tomorrow they will arrive. I can't WAIT. CANNOT WAIT. The kids and I have a lot to do tonight, since I am a 1950's mom in some ways. I need to clean our room so he can come home and sleep in a nice clean space.

Okay- I've got two sleeping babies and a few minutes before snacktime hits. Carry on, people.