Found

I've awoken in a new room;
you must have moved me?
While I slept? Where am I now?
It's bigger in here, there is much more space,
feels much colder though, too.
As I look around, I notice that I'm not alone...
there are others here...
and they babble quietly to themselves, looking around,
can they see me?
I notice they are watching movies, starring you.
And them.
Some from long, long ago, you were small then.
Sharing, crying, hiding your feelings, a child's laughter
making decisions about what it all means...
Others more recent, drunken teenage parties,
life saving, heart taking moments. More decisions.
Who are you??
I hear my own voice and look...
it's my movie playing, starring you.
And me.
And now I understand where I am-
I'm where all the "old" thoughts go,
the friendships that are no longer needed,
loves that no longer heal or matter.
Discarded by you, for what's "best" for you...
I was excited about the extra room but now
I'm not so sure.
The cage I had been in wasn't so bad, you know.
Plus you always left the door open.
I shouldn't have fallen alseep....
But for all the banging I've done on this door,
you won't answer. Locked in, away.
You must hear me. Can't you hear me?
I'm no longer allowed into the smaller rooms,
the ones closer to your heart.
It's too cold here.
The only thing left to do now is use my magic,
I save it for special moments like this,
times when staying hurts more than going...
or is it that going hurts more, when I had meant to
Stay.
You must know my decision because
suddenly I can hear your voice..
and what? What is ithat you're saying to me?
I sigh. I should be thankful for the offer,
and in some way I am, I am. Thank you
so much for all your help---
and once more you and I work together
for the last time.
I will not stay where it is cold, where I am
forgotten. I deserve warmth and love....
You look at me, no...you look through me
and together
we make me disappear.