The Missing

This picture almost makes me cry, I miss it so much. I miss it, I miss it, I miss it. It stirs something so far down inside of me that it's almost untouchable. I ACHE looking at this, so badly that I am halfway tempted to go buy a couple of plane tickets, for a day trip, somewhere- anywhere, where green lives. I need to be where it's alive. It's dormant here. DORMANT. I suppose I could go to the conservatory and try to see if that feeds me, but I'm starving, and I am not sure that anything except the "real" deal will do. I need to be sitting on the bank, with my feet in the creek, with a home made fishing pole and my best friend. And then I need to go climb up in the tree, and sit there in peace, hearing NO CARS, hearing NO PEOPLE, just hearing the wind and the birds. And do you know what I REALLY won't hear? I won't hear this obnoxious bouncy seat going BOING BOING BOING. She is a half hour past nap time. Let's try again...

Birds...all I'll hear are the birds and the wind and the water, and the sounds of living things that are GREEN. NOT WHITE. I'm STARVING.

Back to reality, I guess.

Tell me, do I look any different? I just took my first hit of iodine/iodide. :) Supposedly I'll know within a couple of weeks if it's "working". It's too bad I don't trust the medical industry because it probably wouldn't hurt to have a dr weigh in on it, cept most medical doctors would say no-no to this, since I didn't pay THEM for what I'm taking. Oh well. It's too bad I don't know of a good doctor that I trust, too. My current one is younger than me and as fresh out of med school as one can be. I know more about hysterectomies, menstrual cycles, gall bladder issues and kidney stuff than she does, if the things she's said to me are any clue at all. And I am FAR too lazy to go hunt a doctor down anyhoo. You know us- we go once a year unless someone needs staples in his 4 year old head.

What do you propose I do????? I need to make it through March. I go through this Every. Single. Year. This year it's worse because I am surrounded by little people that make leaving the house feel like the most impossible thing ever.

Unexpected company! YAY FOR ME!