Guilt

Has there ever been a more useless emotion? Guilt+ resentment= a cocktail for a miserable life.

I suppose that in some instances, in very small doses, both these things can be put to good use. But only if they spur us into some sort of positive action. I'm on the fence about saying that though, because truly, any action taken out of GUILT is not really a good action, is it? I don't want anyone to do anything ever for me out of guilt. Not anyone - especially not someone close to me.

Again, even with resentment- if it spurs a HEALTHY conversation, that's probably a good thing. Communication is so huge, and built up resentment can be a relationship killer.

And another point in the guilt column is that we're born with a built in GPS system. This would be the God In Us voice or our conscience or whatever you want to call it. Sometimes we do things that we don't feel good about, and we can take from that and decide not to do that thing again, or make a choice on how to rectify it if we've hurt someone or whatever. That's not a bad thing- that's good. BUT as human beings, especially humans led by religions, we're made to feel guilty for a whole slew of things that in my theology, don't matter in the least. And these things I will not buy into, and I don't wish it on the people I love and care about either. I don't want anyone around me to buy into the idea that they are born "bad", "sinners" or anything else that will require them to "fix" something about themselves- something that is just that way because they were born. As a wife and mother, I find myself feeling guilty when I don't feel like having sex, or if I'm not as into it as he is, or I am positively dying for a break from being "mommed", and I enforce my need. Or pick a hundred other things. We are all screwing up our children in one way or another. They will all grow up and remember something less than flattering about us and our parenting. It's how it is. Feeling guilty about that does no good at all. Do the best you can and keep going. About any of it. It's not worth the wasted time, and what it does to our self esteem, in general. Who needs it?!

My butt goes numb when I'm running. Isn't that weird?

It's Friday. I can do anything for One More Day. I'm down 2 babies right now, and have an extra 22 month old and 4 year old, AND I get to see a girlfriend this morning. YAY! Party on! Time for round 2 of breakfast. If I could eat Friday's, I would.