So, I run--- okay, past tense. I ran. I ran, and I ran, and I ran. For what, a month? 3 weeks? I ran. My general shape may have been changing, but nothing was fitting any differently and it was frustrating. At my January kidney thing, my weight was a full 12 pounds up from a year prior. NO matter what I did, weight not coming off.
Then, I don't know how long ago...3 weeks? A month? 5 weeks? My ovarie/s wake up and grow some cysts or whatever is going on in there. As I've said, I'm not stranger. This has been this way my whole fertile life. Maybe it's being down one kidney, but I have never, ever EVER been so symptomatic. It's ridiculous to the 1 millionth degree, honestly. My back feels it, I get dizzy to the point of throwing up, constipated...for real, look up the symptoms, find a really good list that has 10 of them, and I've got it. I get short of breath when I get dizzy. How stupid is that? It's SO STUPID. Ridiculous STUPID. And it has been for awhile. It was a week ago yesterday that I was too dizzy to function. It's STUPID. I can't eat. Have you been pregnant? You feel hungry, but nothing sounds good. You finally find something that sounds okay, and you have a few bites. Suddenly, it's not good anymore. Not good at all. Not "i'll nibble", no, it's "get this shit out of my face."In fact, you can't make yourself eat another bite. You try, and you are then in the bathroom gagging and trying, trying, trying not to throw up. Awesome! (sarcasm)
I've lost 7 pounds.
Who knew. All that bitching I did about running and not losing weight...here all i needed to do what grow some cysts and react in a different way to them than I ever have before. Rock on! Maybe I wanna hold on to those ovaries afterall.
Boring Pissy but down 7 pounds Nicki, signing off.
PS- If anyone else has been to the dr lately and told they have to take it easy, please do. Our bodies really are worth it.
Maybe it took not being able to eat that made you lose weight. Did the doctor tell you why you have been sick? I see you have an ultrasound appointment.
ReplyDeleteOh, I'm sure it's ovarian cysts. No big deal. I've had them all my life (well, all women do, but I mean, mine tend to blow up and hurt). I really think my ovaries are just waking up (so to speak) after all my surgery in the past year and a half. She wants to look at them because I'm so crazy symptomatic this time. Could be adhesions, or who knows what. We'll find out!
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