What would you do differently?

I was just thinking about what I would do differently, if I could do it all over again.
I don't know if there really is an answer.
Back in highschool, I applied at Makato, for journalism as my major. I mean, HELLO! I would have been fabulous at it. However, one thing I am NOT fabulous at, then or now, is dealing with crowds, tons of people, party atmosphere, overwhelmingness. And, back then, lets not forget, I really didn't care if I wasn't on earth anymore.
So I didn't go. I corresponded with the professor and then I just let it go.
Would I go back now? NO. If I could rewind, would I go back then? NO.
I went to cosmetology school, which I loved. It took me a long time to graduate becauswe in the middle of it, I ended up in the hospital for my eating disorder and that demanded my utmost attention. I did finish and to this day, I am where I am because of going to cosmetology school.
I can't say that what I'm being paid to do is my passion, but I do things outside of work that I'm passionate about, and at one time i did love this industry very much.
So would i change that? I can't say I would. I LOVED some of the people I went there with, some of the all time funniest people in existence...might have to facebook find them! Anyway....
I met Cullen when I was going to cosmetology school. When I got serious with him, there was another person, who I had known for a long time, who freaked out and wanted me to not marry Cullen and be with him. This was actually a huge thing for me because I'd always thought I'd end up with this other person. It hurt me a little bit to tell him no, but Cullen was so wonderful with me and for me and to me and I loved him and his whole family. I was angry that the other didn't really seem to want me until it was too late. Looking back now it's different of course. I was only 19 when we set our wedding date. NINETEEN. Who could blame the other for not forseeing that I'd be married soon? I was still a baby! Would I change my decision? Absolutely not.
Would I have waited to get married? I'm not sure that would have made a difference. I can't tell for sure, but if we married then or later, we'd still have had to overcome the numerous obstacles that we overcame together. It has been hard sometimes, as anyone who is married knows. Throw some kids in there, and that 50% divorce rate isn't so hard to understand afterall. Many years ago, I packed up to leave 2 times. I didn't only because I knew that ENDING IT wasn't what would happen, and it wasn't what I wanted to happen, but I needed his attention to some areas in our marriage BADLY and he just didn't have the balls to face it. My choices in how to get his attention weren't pretty, and I'd make different choices now but I DID get his attention and he DID start participating in the ickier parts of life we had to muddle through.
I don't think I'd change getting married that early in life.
I didn't have the desire to travel back then either. I didn't even want to go to Mexico. I don't feel comfortable when I don't know where I am- which is normal, I'm guessing, and although I'm better at it (I'd move to Arkansas in a minute and build our dream house if we didn't have so many roots here)(yes, sweltering summers and all) now, I still don't want to go to other countries. But now things ARE a bit different because there are places that I would love for the kids to see- however, they don't really care. : )
So, no travelling right now, but soon! They are getting older. I'd love to homeschool, own an RV, and just go whereever the hell we want, learn whatever the hell we want, and enjoy the world around us.

Hm. i guess I answered my own question. Although my ideas about life and the world have changed, I guess I'm still where I'd be. I am more of a homebody than a GO OUT girl, I need a small space that feels like home, and as long as I have Cullen, the kids and a puter, I'm good. HAHAH.