Monday, January 18, 2010

Triple J

I hope this doesn't bite me in the butt...like I'm missing some very obvious sarcasm or something- which could be, always. HA!

I may have even written about him before. He was my friend years ago, when I was heartbroken and devastated from losing babies. Especially after the 14 weeker, he and Julie and Ben and Michelle were the all time best about going to Friday's with me whenever my heart was crying. They were so sweet to me and we laughed and laughed.
It's a rare guy that comes along that a girl can have as an honest friend and it isn't about getting booty. They are precious and rare and the best ever, and he was one of them. I loved him dearly.
As I got married and started having babies, his career took off. Mine took me home, and his took him a little higher up the ladder. We still live under the same roof at work, as a matter of fact, but we didn't connect for YEARS. YEARS, I said. Some things were going down internally and we just didn't hang anymore. It was okay. He would always be a good guy to me.
Now he's married with a kid. And he's my boss.
And it was ROCKY to start out with.
For me, anyway. He was probably starting to hate me- at least it felt that way to me, and I was here struggling like hell to meet all the new demands made on me. I'm a rockstar, but -stupid as this may be- I thrive- THRIVE, I say! - under praise. I wilt away and die under constant criticizm. Which is what I felt was happening. As you may or may not know, I am not that hard to make happy. A little bit of honey goes a lonnnnnngggg way in getting me to do just about anything. i enjoy challenges, personal or otherwise, and I love to help. But you gotta pat my head now and then! So, I wrote him an email. I was crying when I wrote it, because I'd received another (perceived by me to be) rude, harsh email. My efforts weren't being acknowledged out loud. I'm seriously not that needy, but COME ON!
I was scared, of course. I'm not known for knowing when I should and shouldn't say something. I am moved by the moment and good luck getting me away from it. And I was MOVED.
So far- again, hopefully not shooting myself in the foot, it's been INCREDIBLE! I think we have a new understanding, and so far, so very, very good. YAY! Yay for Triple J, whom I will always be thankful for. Yay for us as a team. And, just maybe, it actually made him feel better too? Maybe?
Anyways, until I have my review in March, I'm going to say THREE CHEERS FOR COMMUNICATION- POSITIVE COMMUNICATION! HIP HIP HOORAY! HIP HIP HOORAY! HIP HIP HOORAY! It had been so long since I'd had to deal with personal/personel issues that I'd forgotten how terribly stressful and unfun they can be.
YIPPEE!

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