Funny....

I'm having one of those moments when being me really kinda stinks. These different things are warring against eachother inside and I don't know who wins.
I didn't mean to post anything to hear back how AMAZING I am. It doesn't even feel like anyone is talking about me when they say that. In one big run on sentence, I bet I could convince everyone how unamazing I am. I bet I could tell people things that would actually lose me friends. That isn't why I post it. I post it because I am that excited and that's as close to shouting it from the rooftops as I can get for one, and because the only way that people realize they have the ability to do something is to hear about someone else doing it. No one is sitting around and is suddenly struck with "Hey. I can donate bone marrow. or blood. Or a kidney." These things come up in the paper or on the radio, or because someone you know is doing it. But there's no way to say that without sounding more like "no, really (yes, keep it coming)", ya know? I'm not the first one to want to do this and I won't be the last one. I honestly am a fairly unremarkable person overall. It's just that sometimes it's easier to look at other peoples problems/issues/lives and focus on those rather than looking at mine and being upset by whatever I perceive isn't "good". That's all. it's quite effective too. HA.
We have an albino squirrel in the backyard. She's pretty! I want to pet her.
Dinner coming out of the oven. YAY. The kids are so cute playing together, Julia and Jordan get so excited, even though the noise goes UP -A LOT. Sigh. Hopefully tonight will be a good eating night for all of them. : )

don't try to bleed me, I've been here before
and I deserve a little morrrrrreeeeee
I belong in the service of the queen
I belong anywhere but inbetween
She's been drinking and I've been lying
and I am the rain king.