Oh, Arkansas

I was snooping around on facebook and saw that my sister posted the listing for her house in Arkansas. Look, it's making me cry again. I didn't know that was the last time we'd ever be there last November. Isn't it silly that I'm so attached to a house, a state? The people that I'm REALLY attached to are coming HERE but I'm crying anyway.
Thanksgiving has become my favorite holiday and it's because of what that whole time represents. It's normally cold enough to SUCK here by time we go down there. In the early days going to Arkansas meant playing with Rose's ferrets (stinky, but very fun!) and dogs, enjoying the warmer than MN weather, eating lots of food, shopping. Then it meant getting to see Kaitlyn, and playing with dogs. Then it meant a different house, but the same warm feeling of going somewhere pretty to get away, and having a yummy meal with extended extended family. It was kind of a vacation. I'm crying because I'm not sure when we'll see Doreen, or little Doreen, or her baby, or Joe, or Tim, or any of the people I really, really looked forward to seeing when we went down there. I'm crying because no more Hobby Lobby (hahah okay I'm laughing and crying because it's a STORE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD), and no more OOPS (another fav when we're there). No more warm feeling when we come in the door, of being "home" in a different way. No more glorious rocking in the rocker outside, when at home it's freezing ass cold. :( :( :( :( :( :( I miss Arkansas.
Oh, I know. It's going to be AMAZING having them here. I look forward to taking off for the weekend, I look forward to having them here for weekends, I love love LOVE that we'll be able to see eachother whenever we want, really. I love that. I wouldn't want to change it at all. And it's better, I'm sure, that we didn't know that was the last time while we were there because I would have been a sobby mess there, instead of here, now. booooo hooooo. How stupid! Sometimes I'm just ridiculous. Cullen is SO happy he isn't here right now.