I'm not trying to be Super Girl by being on the Paired Exchange list. I DO think it would be marvelous if more than one life was helped, and if me helping one person will cause others to be helped, who can measure that? What would that be worth if you or the person you love more than anyone in the world were slowly slipping away, slowly and painfully slipping away, waiting for a kidney?
On the flip side, I'd be matched next Monday if I were on the other list, and I'd end someone's wait SOONER. I'd have surgery sooner, be recovered soon, and moving on sooner. Is that just me wanting to be done? Or wanting someone to get a kidney sooner?
It's both.
I could be waiting months on the paired exchange list.
That shouldn't matter, and doesn't, in terms of my life and surgery- but it matters because during that time, I could have already donated and someone's world can start getting back to normal (assuming it works).
What to do, what to do....is patience a virtue or can I hurry things up and ..hurry things up?
I can't tell. I can stay busy and let the rest of my life fill my mind, until I get the call, or I can FINALLY have the surgery that I've been working on for a year (yeah, I know. Only a year. But that's a year and 2 surgeries, all trying to get to this one).
What about that whole list of people who don't have willing donors?
:(
How much caffeine did my 2 cups of decaf HAVE?! My head sure is busy today...
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