What's your biggest struggle?

I don't know what mine is. Other than ME.
Hm. Well, I'll give it a shot.
I think that in general, the most common struggle I have is that I'm impulsive. Sometimes it might not be a bad thing- like when I just can't help but tell someone that I love them or whatever. But when I get upset...yes, yes. Maybe that's my biggest struggle? When I get upset I want to react one way, immediately, and it's very hard to wait my very active mind out til I settle in a place that is okay, where it's okay and safe to respond without causing defensiveness or hurt for me or whoever I'm engaged with. You know? I have to say that I'm getting pretty good at it. You don't even want to know the mess Cullen used to have to deal with, when he got me fresh from the Jason Fiasco. That was...special. HAH!
So that is definitely something I have to dance with. And I get hurt fairly easily and trying to keep myself from spiraling in the hurt, to remember that whoever hurt me either didn't really mean to or that it's just a call for help and/or love on their part. But I'm getting fairly good at that, too.
Maybe it's just most of the time what I think doesn't fit in this world, and so I have to find a balance between what *I* know to be true and what the rest of the world thinks and how they want me to fit while I'm here.
AND let's not forget the fight against myself. The voices that show me every unbeautiful part of me and want that to be the biggest, loudest part, the voices that tell me how I *should* look, feel, act, be. But that part doesn't overwhelm me too much. When it does, it sucks, but it's not too often.
Three Cheers for taking the last of the Eating Disorder by the horns, once again. I'm going to say I have officially tackled it. I can't say that it won't ever mess with my head again, but if I can keep going the way I have been...i'm almost NORMAL! WHOO HOOOOO!!!

Chatty Nicki going away now.