Are you tired of it yet?

Yes, another post about me trying to beat this last part of the eating disorders ass. I'm partially disgusted with myself that I haven't "beat it" yet, and partially proud that I haven't given up yet.
We went for a 3 mile run.
1st time I have ever run with Cullen, 1st time I've ever run outside, and 100th time I've run, gotten pissed off at the irritating sounds in my head- the ones that tell me that it's not far enough, not fast enough, not ever enough. But I did it anyway. I didn't run the whole way, but it doesn't matter, right? 3 miles is 3 stupid, freakin miles? So yay me, in a way. :)

I'm also having vegetarian Monday. Maybe my eating will stop sucking if I start cooking vegetarian meals that I'll actually EAT?! We're going to find out, friends, we're going to find out.

Cullen came home freaking out on me on Friday- it was bizarre and confusing and I did NOT do a good job sitting back hearing him this time. I let loose about how psychotic he was sounding. Guess what? He has a monster he has to argue with too. He understands when I tell him how hard it is to tune that mo fo out when I'm trying to run or whatever because he listens to his all night long at work. We have an understanding. I know he doesn't really need me to constantly call him. He's not a controlling freak at ALL. He babies me all the time. So anyway- it was weird, and it's over. At least that time it didn't last long and I think that it was actually good for me to freak out on him for a minute and let him know how out of line and insane what he was saying is- made him look at it and hear it with different ears.

My ass hurts. That was a big hill.

That's it. Here we come, week #2 at work. Well, on Tuesday anyway. I am going to have to bring back some of my sparkley things to make it pretty in my little space again. And I HAVE to find a way to have music. It is (was, heheh) ridiculously quiet in there.

We talked about my friends tonight. Cullen said "I give you crap about having all your friends, but it's really a beautiful thing.." I feel like I say it all the time, but I have the world's all time bestest friends EVER IN THE WORLD. Thank you for being my friends.

Is it bad that I love Karma Chameleon so much? HAHAH! Does it make it better if I say that I love Roy O's You Got It too? I am pretty sure I can go without food or water longer than I can go without music. Can you see me in bed with John and Yoko? Refusing food and water, listening to the ipod?
Dork.

HAPPY SUNDAY NIGHT! I think a cherry flavored yum yum drink is in order. And a mean game of canasta. Lookout Cullen, yous about to get SKOOLD!