This was my note from the Universe yesterday:
Did you know that here, Nicki, in the unseen and in worlds far removed from your own, trees actually have personalities as strong and distinct as your own?
True... it's the same where you are, but no one would ever believe it.
Timber...
The Universe
I don't know why my font is in BOLD. I also don't know why that little note almost made me cry, except maybe that's what we feel when...I don't know. I feel it all the time. I love being surrounded by trees. It's like almost being able to hear them talk. The energy in those places, like nature centers, or wildlife refuges or forests....it must be true. And of course it's true- trees are MIRACLES. They keep us alive with oxygen, created perfectly so that they live from us and we live from them. But we treat them horribly, don't we?
It made me cry when Bev had a tree cut down because she was tired of raking leaves. A perfectly good, old, beautiful, fully grown tree. It was so sad. I have a tree that is being killed or else it's already dead in the back yard, and it makes me sad to see it. :( Oh, how we beat the hell out of the world.
We were on our way home from buying crickets to feed Leo the Lizard (lizard daycare while Tayler is in Mexico) and Willow and Cullen says "Are the crickets any less than the trees?" and by then I was already crying (WHY does my reaction to anything that I feel deeply have to be to CRY?), and of COURSE the crickets are no less than the trees. My poor little crickets are scared out of their minds in the plastic bag, and they are scared to death and avoid Willow in the cage, and they try to stay as still as possible when in front of the lizard. They know, and it's sad and I feel bad, but I will still feed them to the animals. :(
I also remembered how to meditate, finally. I don't know what my problem was but it's gone now. All I have to do is FEEL. I was focusing so much on clearing my mind, when all I need to do is FEEL and it will clear automatically.
I need to poop. YAY FOR ME!!!
But first- I had SUCH a good dream this morning right before I woke up. We were all (I mean, my parents, Cullen, no kids, but family and friends) were at JLA's cabin. I got to see my maternal grandpa, too, as a young person, which was AWESOMELY fun. I watched him chase kids around...the kids would run into the pond, thinking that would stop him since he's fully dressed, but it didn't. I loved seeing his smile again, and his youth. I was making out with Cullen- this is the important part, because never once in a million years of being with him, have I ever EVER made out with him in a dream....and it was barely making out with him. It was more like I was sitting on his lap like a magnet was on him, and I did NOT want to move. You know that feeling....Like you just don't care, you are not moving, come hell or high water, everything you've ever needed is right there and you're NOT MOVING. My mom ...HAHAHAH! Stupid dreams. My mom was in the car waiting for me, and she came in to flash the hallway light (this was what she used to do for Michelle and I to tell us to hurry the hell up) to let me know to hurry up. We were going to buy marichino (SP!!!) cherries.
Don't know. But I woke up missing Cullen. WHO, BTW, got up with the kids this morning and gave me my thyroid medicine while I was out of it and let me sleep. He had to leave for work at 8:30 this morning, and I woke up at 8:45 (didn't want to...Jordan crying, CJ getting frustrated) (I NEVER sleep that late!!!) (I WAS up with a coughing Jordan from 4am-5am), and the coffee was made. YAY!!! I got to sleep in! The kids were FED even when I woke up. WHOOO HOOOO!!!
I think I love today.
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