Ohhhh lala!

Cullen might get terminated! WHOO HOOO!!!! The normal start time on Saturdays is 4:50am, and his boss told him to come in at 5:15am to discuss everything. The problem is that if they term him, they will try to GFT it. I don't know what that stands for other than they "earn" their jobs back by doing paid for training. I asked him that IF that's what happens, is he going to let them GFT it. He said he doesn't know. I think he's starting to feel the stress of having to make a decision one way or another soon. THE SUSPENSE BUILDS. It's been so nice having him not be overly tired the past few days, even though he still sucks in the morning. I even said something last night to him...he said "You don't seem as happy in the morning as you normally do" and I said "It's my own fault, I keep hoping that one of these days you'll actually get up and have coffee and enjoy some of the peace and quiet with me before the day starts." Then I let him off the hook. "But I realize that you don't get this chance often, to sleep "in" so it's my own fault for hoping."
Today he didn't get up either. Jackwagon.
Tonight we have a hot date to look at RV's and start finding out how much we would finance ours for. :)
I decided that when we do ...*We interrupt this post for an update on Cullen*...I just found out how I REALLY feel about Fed Ex.
Cullen called Chris back to clarify that he isn't working tomorrow one way or the other, and Chris confirmed. It SOUNDS like it'll be a term/GFT deal. So I asked again "What are you going to do?" and he says "Well, I'll have my job back." I asked if he can't feel the difference today, when he's normally a tired grump and he said for sure he can. Then I started getting pissed. I mentioned that not only does HE not have a normal weekend EVER and only gets one day off, but that I don't get any days off either because of his hours, and that I am on duty all the time. So he mentioned the occassional nap and how he tries to get me a break sometimes during the week (he took the kids shopping 2 nights ago). So I COMMENDED HIM for doing SO MUCH to try to help me, then caught myself. His main concern is insurance. I, of course, don't give a shit about any of that, which is probably stupid. SOMETIMES, I am seeing, I GET SICK AND TIRED OF BEING THE NEVER ENDING SUPPORT FOR HIS FUCKING SLEEP. "SHHH, dad's sleeping...." getting up every day with the kids so HE can get some sleep, regardless of what my night may have been like with any sick kids. Keeping the house up. YES, I KNOW, I am SO BLESSED that my husband works TWO JOBS for the GREAT INSURANCE and I GET TO STAY HERE DOING DAYCARE but ...what's my problem? I get frustrated with my mom sometimes, who is SOOOO pro Nicki that she bashes Cullen, who is working his ass off, but at the same time, she's the only one I hear it from. Everyone else is so enamored of Cullen's amazingness that he can work 2 jobs and work out all the fucking time AND deal with his wife and kids. Fuck that.
Now I'm pissed. :)
How unfortunate. I better go get to work on my fucking piss poor attitude. It's just getting worse and worse.... I don't cook EVERY NIGHT but HE NEVER DOES. If I don't cook, if I give myself a night off, we are ordering out. Otherwise he comes home to dinner everynight and a mostly clean house. If I mention this, he gives me a list of what he does to help out around the house. THANK YOU FOR EVERY LITTLE THING YOU DO TO HELP OUT. I know I'm a spoiled brat mostly- he will get me anything I want if I ask, and he does it even when I don't ask, and sometimes when I don't even want whatever it is. I KNOW that. That's probably the problem. In fact, every BIG *problem* we've encountered has been over his working/not working. The first time it was about Fed Ex (night shift) and drinking (always the goddamned drinking!), next time was his unemployment and inablility to get over his learning disability to save his family (which he did eventually do, mostly), and then it was his working 2nd shift and being a ghost in the family, a mean, jealous, crabby ghost....
What is my problem. ? Seriously.
Why can't he just work one fucking normal job like the rest of the world? I need a new tire by the way. Have for a long time. He just doesn't have time for it. At some point, isn't your FAMILY more important than MONEY?
UGH!