SEE? See how I am? I'm okay now. Round 1 with the treadmill didn't go so well but I'm going to be okay. My head is okay again. I'll have some dr pepper and some non pereils and think it over. :)
Eating disorders are THE most fucked up thing EVER! I have NO PROBLEM with food. Just working out.
Stupid.
Dear Universe, please help me to help my kids keep a healthy outlook. Please. I don't want them wrestling with this EVER.
I really, truly know how you feel. Last time I was this size I had starved myself to get there. This time I eat healthy and exercise, but it takes a LOT for me to 'get over it' if I weigh myself and my weight is up by even .10 of a pound. My first instinct is "Oh I wont eat tomorrow and then my weight will be back down" but I make myself eat like normal to keep my metabolism going. I love to work out and even now, on vacation in Green Bay, all I can think about is how I missed my workout tonight and I wish I would have brought my running shoes so I could work off some of this horrible fast food I've eaten today.
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We're gonna be ok.
I <3 you! Hang in there. I'm sorry and thankful that you understand. See you Thursday! And we ARE going to be okay. Just bites sometimes. SMOOCH!!!
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