I totally don't miss it. Not at all. I have never once wished I could bleed again.:) BUT- I have to say that it's very confusing, or maybe it's good for me...to wonder if things I am noticing are cycle related.
When one of your senses is gone, the others are heightened, right? I can't tell if I'm ovulating or if it's a cyst. I can't tell if I'm just restless and unsatisfied in my day to day or if I'm premenstrual. Was it Cullen reminding me how "good" I have it and that I shouldn't complain? Was it that it's sunny out but I'm stuck here in case a salon needs to cry about some damages? Is it that people are fickle- SOME people are fickle? Is it that I'm stuck waiting for surgery? Are you tired of hearing that yet? I can't plan anything BIG anytime soon, I don't know when to schedule our anniversary for, blah blah blah. I notice that at certain times I am MUCH more aware of the people who are around. I'm all Joey How YOU Doin', and it occured to me that that's probably cycle related too. I'm not that way right now, but I noticed it last week or so.
The nice kid at the gas station always covers the change that I owe if it's under 20 cents, isn't that nice? No, this isn't the one that I think is so very cute, it's a different one. That had nothing to do with anything cept maybe I just need to climb out of my head and go focus on someone else . Or maybe not. I'll go throw more shit away. I've got the kids' thing cleaned OUT. Hope they don't freak. And I deleted what I had for my "book". F*ck it. If I'm not writing it for anyone but me, and I don't even want anyone else to read it, what's the point? Cullen would hate reading it. And then I'll go do some defriending on fb. And kick a dog. HAHAHHAHAHA!!!
PMS? unnecessarily crabby bitch? Take your pick.
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