It just happened again! I wished for something and it materialized. It was “only” shampoo, but it annoys me when I have to actually buy it since I work where I work. And I was about to buy it, and BAM, I come into work and have a PILE of shampoo at my desk. I need to start wishing even bigger, don’t I?
ANYWAYS, back to One Moment In Time In A Whackjob’s Life.
Today Whackjob Nicki decides to “forget” that she is actually connected to everyone and everything around her, thus keeping her from ever EVER being alone. She chooses to forget that so that she can experience the feeling of falling through space once again, with no one and nothing to grab on to. The audience cannot understand why she would do this, but since we all do it sometimes, we let it happen knowing that at some point she’ll come to again, and reach out to one of the bazillion things/people around her and catch herself.
For now, she’s falling, screaming in her head, and the sound of her own voice echos through out the universe, with no reply. Looking around she sees nothing but the empty black of nothingness, not even the stars are shining. Oh, maybe there are some! But they are so far away, they are likely not even in existence any longer, their light taking so long to even show up. Nope. Nothing. No one.
What is it? Is it winter? Is it not having a surgery date and being really, really afraid that something else will come up and make it not happen? YES…that is it right there! DING DING DING (DONG LESS!)! That’s IT!
How to overcome being in no where land, when there is no date, nothing concrete that will reassure our Whackjob that surgery will indeed happen? ---hold please, gotta shake off the 3rd person thing. *shaking*
Am I that stupid? I mean, am I ..that STUPID? Why can’t I just know that it will be okay, and act appropriately? Why am I not running? Why am I drinking caffeine? Why aren’t I being as good to myself as I can? Why do I need to have surgery booked to act that way anyway? Why aren’t *I* a good enough reason to act that way? I guess if we all acted that way, no one would drink or smoke or eat half the garbage that we do, huh.
Oh well. I just had 4 totally fabulous days with Cullen, and I needed that badly. He’s searching right now, too. He feels restless and like he wants to do SOMETHING. Maybe we can squeeze something else in in the mean time while waiting?
I learned something else, too. It’s animals. Whatever it is that I am going to be doing, it’s with animals. Now I just have to fine tune what it is and how to get there from here.
YAY.
Nice catch!
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