Okay, I'm done. Today I just decided that I am done holding on to "friends" who probably aren't really friends. You know the ones...the ones that seem to like you, but very rarely check in with you. Like if you want to know how they are doing, you need to contact them to find out becuase otherwise you'd never hear from them? I feel like I do a pretty good job of keeping up with people that I love. I'm letting go of the people that don't do the same. I almost feel lighter already. I'll test my theory and defriend a couple and see if they notice. If they do and they come back, I'm not accepting.
I'm watching Michael Hutchinson sing Disappear. Did he mean to die? Did anyone tell us if he meant to or not? I hope he didn't. Look at all those people loving him. Is it ever enough? How come people like Kurt Cobain....well, that was drugs. Boy we screw ourselves up, don't we? I was thinking that it's crazy how alone we feel sometimes when we're surrounded...somehow it never matters how many people are loving us, we still feel empty or lonely. But drugs make it worse, a million trillion times worse.
I was just feeling like I don't belong anywhere again. I don't know where it comes from, or why that feeling happens, but instead, I think I'm going to curl up with MH and let him sing to me over and over and over and over. :) Til my babies come home anyways. They get sick of this song a lot faster than I do. heheh
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