Forever In one day

Ever have one of those days when you wake up and feel like life is taking FOREVER and is creeping by at a snails pace? I'm sure it's just from winter STILL being here, and being tired of having to wake up and do the same things day in and out. I even know the cure for this feeling but if I'll use it, we'll see. I need to look at the moments that make up the moment, and enjoy everything that is NOT the same. I can laugh at Josh's funny face he made at me, and play with CJ since he wants it to be rhyme time this morning (everything you say has to rhyme). He just came up in navy boxer briefs and his sweatshirt and I said "That's awesome, go to school like that" and he called my bluff. Funny kid. See? I just have to be in the moment, fully.
But instead, I'm fantasizing about waking up in the morning when the sun is creeping up, and it's already warm out, so I throw open the kitchen window and start breakfast then. The kids get ready for school and go horse around outside, while I'm hollering "Don't get dirty just yet!" which is hopeless, but somehow necessary to say anyway. Then I round them up to eat, unless CJ made it for me that time, and they eat and pack their bags and the kids in their classes stop by to play before school too. I look like I just rolled out of bed- because I did, but I don't care. I feed my friends coffee and send them on their way because all the kids can walk to school together.
*sigh* Then I will take care of my work stuff and forward my phone ot my cell phone and we'll go for a walk to the park.
My insides almost feel better just dreaming.
THEN in the afternoon "my" other kids will come over to play with Julia and Jordan, and at 4 we'll all walk to get CJ and Josh. We'll come home and I'll feed them all a snack and start getting dinner ready. Then the neighbors start showing up after work for a cocktail and we decide we'll grill. More neighbors show up, and the kids are all playing and Cullen gets home from work and fires up the grill. The kids want a bonfire and we tell them that they can afterwards. Does it get any better than that? I NEED IT. NOW!
Cullen is apparently feeling it too because he is ready for me to book us a room on the North Shore for or anniversary. I wish I knew when surgery was so that I could plan when I'll be any good at all for going up.
Travis is a stalker. He called me again last night, I was in a book store, funny enough. Cullen's pretty sure that I want to go to vet school and then work in a zoo.
Too many choices, still overwhelming. UGH!