JLK Jen

I'm surrounded by Jen's that I love, too. I'm so going to have a Jen party, and there will be 5 Jen's here, at least. And it's going to be a RIOT!

JLK represents alot of different things to me. I went to school with her from the beginning. We hung out a little, then probably not at all. I don't remember much from then.

Facebook- again- brings people together. She reached right out to me. I thought it was fun to reconnect. It was also scary for me. For the first time, I was going to have to reconcile Who I Was with Who I Am. Highschool was not the best time for me, and I was aware that many people were very clear on what kinds of things I had going on. I was nervous, but figured that she wouldn't have reached out if she was carrying alot of judgement about me, right?

And away we went! I faced and owned my fears about my past. She helped me get the hell over it. She is as honest as can be, too, so it felt good to hear it from someone who wouldn't spare me that that's all so long ago, and no one cares. I went through some things that many people don't deal with til later, if ever, and time is time. Who cares. I am certainly NOT the most important person to everyone who ever knew my name. She knows all about me and still likes me! AND!!!! AND!!! There is one person from highschool that I have carried on my heart every since, someone i loved and hurt badly and stupidly. Jen mentioned doing lunch, all of us. I was scared as hell. And even more scared when JEN NEVER SHOWED. I did just fine, and I don't know how the other person felt afterwards, but now the last time I saw her it wasn't during the worst time of my life. JLK has no idea how good that was for my soul.

We're solid now, she and I. She has babies too, so as mom's we relate, and it's fun to get the kids together. I've got a gauge on her, so I know what's going on all the time. : ) She work near me and we do lunch when we can, or she'll come over so I can feed her and we chat at least a few times a week.

I'm so thankful that she was brave enough to do that. I know that often times I am not brave enough to reach out to someone that truly do not "know". She's solid too. She'll be around for the long haul.