Okay.
I know that I am "too much" for some people. I had to get over that a long time ago. I try to reel it in and be "normal" and not too overwhelming. I remember the first time I was face to face with someone who had to "tolerate" me and I knew it. My feelings were so hurt because I really felt like we were good friends.
But it was a good lesson, of course.
Mostly, I don't care. I don't really have time to cater to people's needs that way, and if I am too much, I just don't ...care. Part of it is due to my inability to suck up, and I guess that's okay. I actually saw an interview on Howie Mandel of all people, and he said the same thing that I say (scary!)...said that he's either really impulsive, or really idiotic. That's my life, right there. I don't think things through, I just act, and sometimes it gets me in hot water and sometimes it works out for the best.
ANYWAYS. I'm done. I'm done with this one. I'm washing my hands. I do not care any longer. I am surrounded by love, and happiness, and friends, and warmth. I love this stupid world bigger than there are words for, and I love the people in my life the same way. I know I am a good friend. And I'd be lost without my friends.
But, I can't win them all.
WHEW. I'm free again. Freedom is nice. *Curtsey*
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