Isn't it a wonder?

Have you ever been so ever lovin' annoyed and irritated and irate and hateful...only to have it all disappear? I don't know what caused it to go away. OH, I was an angry girl earlier. I've learned alot over the years, and I've learned how to deal with my anger. Since I am so impulsive, I used to get real ugly when I was mad. I'd say the meanest thing i could think of because I wanted the other person to understand exactly how upset I was. Isn't that mature? And my sarcasm knew no bounds...
Kids help that, I supose. I still am not the BEST angry person ever, but I'm BETTER than I was. hehe.
Today I was MAD. I was DONE. I was OVER IT. I was invited to vent, and I did, and for whatever reason JLL's magic worked on me and it was GONE. Just, gone.
Why? Where did it go? I had been conciously trying to "let it go" and that did not appear to be working, but it's gone.
YAY.
Or is it the pain pill? HAHAHA I'm JUST KIDDING. FOr the love of God, I'm not really addicted to them. If I had any Advil, I'd be popping that when needed. : )

Why is alcohol so important to some people? I know it's a dumb question. If I understood then I wouldn't need to ask. I know that a nice buzz is fun and in general, if you're not a shitty drunk, it's a good time. But REALLY? Every weekend? Why? Tanked? WHY? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And I LOVE this one: "I can go without...I just don't want to." Um...HELLO? "I'll try beer instead, maybe that won't screw me up so much.." Yeah, it's the actual DRINK, not the fact that you had 10 of them...I don't get it. That's why I mentioned the pain pills. Because, let's face it, if I could afford to be zoney all the time, I'd totally do it. By AFFORD it, I mean not only $$ but if I had no other responsibilities except to waste away, all blissed out. Is that what it's like? I have so many people involved in alcoholism around me...

And now my babies are in bed. I have been coffee free for ...weeks? Caffeine free (at least from soda) for a week, and I haven't had red meat in a week either. I'm starting to feel ...good, I think. I'm scared to eat too much fat at all because of things I've heard/read regarding digesting without a gallbladder. That's good for me, truly. I hate thinking about all the processed crap I eat, all the nasty stuff I let the kids eat. I hate feeding them deli meat. YUCK. You should hear them in their room. They are TOTALLY cracking up. It is the best. I HAVE to go stop it, but they are totally lost in laughter right now. I love them.

LALALALALA See Nicki putting off cleaning up upstairs. They are SO FUNNY- they draw and color Christmas pics, cut them out and tape them on the wall. It's so awesome. I love their minds. But there are paper scraps all over the place. Makes Cullen nuts, but sometimes at the end of the day, I just want them in bed and I decide I'll deal with the mess.

Alright, 5th wind coming right up, and I'm going to go clean it up, get some hot chocolate and find something mindless to watch. TTFN!