Weakness

On this day of your life, Nicki, I believe God wants you to know...

...that the acknowledgment of your weakness is the first

step in repairing your loss.

Thomas Kempis said that, and he was right. Sometimes

this is the hardest thing for people to do. Yet self-truth

and truth with others about where you have fallen short

almost ensures that you will go a long way. Everyone can

see you anyway, why not admit what everyone is seeing?

You cannot let go of anything if you cannot notice that you

are holding it. Admit your 'weaknesses' and watch them

morph into your greatest strengths.

Okay!
My weaknesses...
Chocolate, for sure. (Please God, let me let go of it...)
Jordan when he waggles his eyebrows at me.
Pina Colada starbursts
...
Do you think that it wasn't so much about chocolate as my human weakness? Of which I'm full. Okay let's try that out...

I fall prey to PMS, and every month that I have it while i have this cyst, it's nasty.
I distrust doctors to the point of not pushing the cyst issue.
I feel like I have to work hard when it comes to keeping my loving thoughts and respect for 2 males in particular in my life.
OH how I judge stupid fucking humans. ;)
I get impatient with Cullen for little things like the fact that the dishwasher is STILL without brackets so everytime I pull out the drawers to put dishes in, the whole thing tips forward. This is irritating, but I'm babied and pampered just about every day of my freaking life, so I should shut up, find the brackets and figure out how to do that shit myself. I haven't yet.
I let being ignored bother me way more than I should. I get pissed when I feel like I care more about a person than they care about me, which even if it's true, shouldn't bother me. I care about a LOT of people who don't even know who I am, so why do I hold the people I know to a different standard and demand that they show SOMETHING? Because I too am just a stupid fucking human.
I procrastinate. See previous post about going without my meds for 5 days now.

Okay, those are the biggies.
Jordan's home. Time to snuggle and eat yogurt.