HEY YOU! GET OFFA MY CLOUD!

1. Um...is it a little sad that Cullen would pay $700 for SOMEONE ELSE to go with me? Could he really NOT want to go THAT badly? I guess so. I guess it isn't for everyone. :( Do you think maybe he said I can go because he knew that it'd be hard to find someone to go with me? Maybe not since he offered to pay for someone else. :(

2. Can anything else be scheduled on Thursday? And all of it is stuff that is fairly important, but I don't know how to be more places than one all at the same time. Where's my cape?

3. Oh what can it mean to a daydream believer and a homecoming queen?

4. Maybe she's just looking for someone to dance with.

5. Maybe I'll just keep quoting songs and you can get bored and go away or see if you can get the song.

6. Devastation at last, finally we meet.

7. Lovin would be easy if your colors were like my dreams. (I never said they'd been GOOD songs)

8. Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it at the time.

9. Show me how you do it, and I'll run away with you, I'll run away with you.

10. These streets turn me inside out; everything shines but leaves me empty still

11. in a room without a door, a kiss is not enough

12. Take my hand in the meantime, let's walk into the sunshine

13. Just tell me what you've got to say to me, I've been waiting for so long to hear the truth

14. How could she say to me love will find a way, gather round all you clowns, let me hear you say.....

15. Do not turn away my friend, like a willow I can bend, no man calls my name, no man came.

16. Okay I am bored first. You win. :P

What if I book my weekend at the Ele house? What happens then? Do I get into trouble with Cullen? I mean COME ON! It's a weekend at an elephant retreat. It isn't like I'm going off with a bunch of girlfriends to some wild party for the whole weekend where he'd never ever know what I was actually doing. ELEPHANTS. Surely murderer wannabes aren't hanging out there waiting for the some elephant fanatic to show up so they can butcher them to teach their mom a lesson for the time 35 years ago when she spanked him for "no good reason", right? ELEPHANTS. I don't care if I am there by myself. It would be GOOD for me to be by myself. Then I don't need to entertain anyone at all except me, and that's plenty big a job anyway, thanks much. I don't have to care what anyone else is doing, or when they are doing it. I can make NEW FRIENDS! New friends who won't think I'm stupid for wanting to go pet elephants so badly. Or baldly, which is what I typed first.
What's a girl to do?

I think I need a good push on the tire swing, high enough to tickle my tummy and get me out of my own head.