Things that are good

1. The thunder. My willow tree LOVES and NEEDS that and now SUPER MAGIC is happening in places I can't see. GROW, BABY! Momma needs somewhere to hide. NOW.

2. French Vanilla Coffee and Hazelnut Creamer. I'm so far off the wagon I can't even see the wagon. I'll get back on. But not today.

3. Cullen totally okayed my going to sleep with elephants in November. The only condition is that I can't go alone. Anyone want to go with me? I'm sure to as irritating as you've ever seen me. I cry watching the dolphin, puppy and elephant give birth on the NGEO channel show- which was on again last night. You can imagine how I'll be when I get to TOUCH an elephant. It's $700, sorry. Cullen very kindly said to me, as we were in the garage sitting in the hottub (yes) "I'll pay for someone to go with you..." but I'm insisting that he doesn't do THAT. Good God. And something about "You can have whatever you want." Which isn't true, but he only has so much power to give also. ;) Anyway- I have a couple of people who did say they would love to go so maybe I'll see if they really REALLY want to go, in November, and then I'll set it up. Maybe loving on an elephant will feel as good as....it seems like it will? I mean, maybe an elephant is big enough to hold ...me and my feelings? I just can't wait.

4. The people around me who do what is good and right and it all keeps me safe whether or not it's what I want. At least I know that what's good for the goose is good for the gander and I'm fully aware that I need to save my tantrums and just say Thank You. Have some more fucking thunder and rain. :D (I'm giggling and that made DDF even giggle too!) (that's a win for me, even though he says he likes to make me laugh.)

5. Josh just requested a foot rub. Brilliant. He got it. Julia wanted to help. Watching her rub her brothers feet grows something in me...it's a relationship that I can't touch, one that I don't have access too, and I LOVE IT. Siblings. Awesome.

6. The bracelet that Josh made me has a little bell on it, and it tinkles when I move. It's colorful and delicate and he worked on it FOREVER yesterday.

7. My 9 year old did not die after falling off of an ATV without a helmet.

8. I am fully prepared for this week to be really full of ME and not "enough" of Cullen and I'm READY. I will not be as crabby about it this week because I have my game face on.

9. I was forgiven for my hissy fit last week.

10. Adalane is about to crawl. This is the last golden week, where they aren't moving that much.

11. Napping babies are almost as cute as awake babies.

12. Cheering on the Race for the Cure was AWESOME. It is sooooo much fun, and puts everything in perspective.

13. I am unstoppable.

14. The blueberry raspberry vanilla smoothie I'm about to make is going to rock my socks!

15. One of my biggest problems is being able to decide what thing I'd like to do/have/be first. What a great issue! Do we want to buy the cabin next to my parents? Buy an RV? A new van? I love it. How about if I do all of them? Good idea. :)

16. My ipod. THANK GOD FOR MUSIC.

17. The video for "No Rain"---remember her? The sweet bumble bee? GOD I love that song and that video. Miss you, SH. And Michael- caught an oldschool INXS vid this morning bright and early this morning too. I'm not into long hair, but MH was freaking HOT plain and simple. Lenny and MH--- those might be my only 2 celebs on my "list". That list is getting really short, isn't it?

18. MY WILLOW TREE, DAMMIT!!!!!! I wonder what her name is. I wonder what it means that people ask me what her name is. Maybe people normally name trees and it's not that I'm that big of a dork that they know I'm trying to find her name.

The end. Happy Monday.