I'm marrying the world.

Here are my vows.....

Dear World,
As your unlawfully and not really wedded wife, I promise to you, and all of the people in it, to be as drama free as I possibly can, each and every day.
What does that mean? That means that when I'm punchy and kicky and there's no "real" reason for it, that I'll keep my mouth shut. I will resist the urge to find someone to pick on (damn!) to let some of it out. *SIGH* I promise that if it really needs an out, I'll let it out like most normal people, and just cry it out, even if that's uncomfortable feeling.
I promise not to engage in any crazy raging debates, but rather try to hear others with an open mind and an idea that I could learn something from them.
I promise to stand by my side and stick up for myself when it's necessary. I won't assume that anyone else will do it, and I will try to not be offended when someone discusses my obvious shortcomings. It's not worth it. And if I'm open about them myself, I won't care when someone else is discussing them, should that come up, right?
I promise to keep getting better at feeding myself. Even if I go broke for a minute doing it. I'm getting better and I will keep getting better.
I promise to protect myself from emotional vampires who are not friends at all, but need machines that only want to suck the life out of me and others around them.
I promise to not take on guilt that will not serve me. If a little guilt will serve me, I will help myself to a healthy dose of it, be moved, and then release it.
When stuff from the past comes up to bite me, or I find myself in *that* space again, and I want to recitfy it in some way, shape or form, I promise to look at whatever it is in the most basic terms to determine if I really need to go back there and touch that again, or if I can just let it go.
I promise that I will remember that when I'm dealing with others, I'm really dealing with myself and I'll treat them that way.
I promise that if I see an opportunity to shine some love somewhere, i will do it instead of just thinking about it. I'll BE THE CHANGE I want to see in the world.
I promise that the world can count on me, at the very least, to assume that it's a GOOD place instead of a horrible place.
I promise to look at the loving, good things, and not focus on all the atrocities going on.
I promise to heal any hurts in the world whenever I can, however I can, as often as I can, the best that I can.

And to me, I promise I will stop wearing jewelry that makes me break out in hives. This itching and scratching and calamine lotion is NOT worth it.



I'm sure there's more, but believe me...that will be plenty for me to try to remember tomorrow. :P