GAH!

I missed the fing spellingbee!! CJ was in it and I MISSED IT!!!!!!!!!
I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK! I SUCK!
On the upside, I had all 4 kids ready for the day, I dropped 2 of them off where they were suposed to go, and I made it to work, dressed and ready for the day.
However-
I MISSED THE STINKIN SPELLING BEE!! CJ took 6th place. I HATE ME a little bit for missing that. DAMMIT. UGH.

It's going to rain, and I hope it pours. I will go stand in it, and chase my babies around.
It's sprinkling now. I'm going to punch out of work and go out there and pour out some love, and hopefully CJ will hear the I'm sorry that I'm still giving to him. I'm sorry I forgot, I'm sorry I would have had to send Grandma anyway, I'm sorry she didn't see it, she'll be mad when she finds out that his shitty mom forgot the spelling bee, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that my head is too full sometimes of everything else I'm trying not to forget, and that it's a kid thing that gets left out.
I'm sorry.
I am so so sorry, my babies.
I promise I'm trying to remember everything.