I gotta not be sarcastic. I have worked HARD on it, this is not my first post about losing the sarcasticness....and I have come a long way. I just caught myself being a smartass to Cullen. This is not helpful.
Here's the set up:
I'm slightly irritated. Working from home with 4 kids is irritating. With 6 kids, impossible. I was mentally wiped, I layed down for a half hour (danceparty downstairs). My work phone rang. My work IM dinged. Kids came in and out of the house enough to make me scream. I gave up.
I called Cullen.
Yesterday TWO different times we discussed me making chicken and rice for dinner tonight. TWO TIMES.
He just asked me on the phone if I needed him to make something for dinner or what the plan was. This is on top of kids asking me every question under the sun while I'm trying to send off emails and take care of bidness work-wise. He asked that! I said, sarcastically, in a "DUMB" voice "I'm still planning on the same thing I have been planning on. We're going to eat chicken and rice unless you have a sudden objection." or something a long those lines. That's not helpful. He's my husband. But sometimes I just don't want one more repetitive question.
I don't want anyone to need me! I don't like this! I don't want to work from home with 4-6 kids here! I can't deal with this!!!!
Of course I can. It's just a LOT easier on some days, like when I'm not a premenstrual wah.
Note To Self: lose the sarcasm asap. It does NO ONE good. It makes whoever receives it feel like shit. End of story.
Don't be so hard on yourself Nik - it's normal to "snap" once in awhile. You are a fabulous wife & mommy! You can do it ALL.
ReplyDeleteBTW, how was the chicken & rice? :)
My sister is doing online dating. One of the guys she was looking at had put down "sarcasm" as a turn off. We both just laughed knowing that we could never, ever be with someone who wasn't sarcastic and didn't appreciate sarcasm!
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