Must. Get. Out.

I need to have surgery asap.
I have to get OUT OF HERE!
I can't DO THIS!!!!
I CAN'T DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to bring money to us, but this is not how I wish to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will miss everyone here dearly (okay, 90% of them)- but I HAVE TO GET OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to be doing something I LOVE!!! Something that feels GOOD! Something that I CARE ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!