Jane's book is kicking butt! I am so excited to give it to her when we're leaving tomorrow night! And even more excited that not only is she still here, she doesn't seem as on the brink as she did a week ago. Rally or whatever it is, this is the BEST!
But what is really, really sad is seeing Cullen's face. Every time I read a new love note to him, tears pour down his face. And if you could see the way he looks at me...it reminds me of when we were in Mexico and we miscarried our 14 weeker. The heartbreak, his soul reaching out to hold and be held...he just looks at me and I can almost physically feel it. We are so blessed that when heartbreaking things happen we magnetize instead of shut down and push away.
I'm starving.
All 3 babies are sleeping. I should be snoozing or doing laundry or calling my mom to see if she'll come bring me some packing tape since mine has disappeared and GO FIGURE, my gifts need to get sent to Arkansas YESTERDAY. UGH!
Tonight Danny and Deb are coming over to play and do our mini Christmas. I love them! Cullen has a cold and doesn't feel good, but he'll make it through, because he's gotta! He's going to go get all the stocking stuffers for everyone- flip flops, sunglasses, sunscreen, coloring books and crayons and other things to do on the plane. Won't that be fun? I can't wait to watch my sweet babies open their gifts! I just love giving to people. It's the best ever!
Speaking of The Best Ever...I have it made. I was feeding Adalane and watching her tiny little cheeks as she sucked down some boob juice, and her little screw on hand was laying on mine, and her little eyes were intently focused on me, and I thought "BEST. EVER!" How can you beat that? Watching Ethan take his first steps...I am so blessed! I get to watch all these milestones again, and see the miracle of children learning...*dreamy sigh*
Okay, I'm sure there's some zillion calorie bullshit sitting around here waiting for me to eat it. :) YUM!
Cheers!
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