How To Stop Being Mad

I'm sure this doesn't work for everyone, and I'm even more sure that there are better ways out there, but I have to say...I'm learning!
I woke Cullen up before going to Suzanne's. I snapped "Do you remember last night?" this is mean of me because I know it scares him and makes him unsure. "I think so" is all he can say. Then I said "Then you know you were a stupid, drunk asshole and won't be surprised that I totally dislike you today."
and i left.
That's nice, right? :P
When I came back, he came over to touch me and said "I'm so sorry." and I snapped (see a pattern?) "Again. You're sorry, again." and I let loose, going over every transgression that came from him, starting with talking over everyone and not letting anyone finish a sentence to saying rude, ugly things to me when I would try to stop him from bulldozing anyone who had anything to say. I told him i'm NOT going over to Rick and Tina's for New Years Eve night because he can't figure out how to control himself when he's around them. (so he's not drinking New Years Eve- YAY! That will get me to R+T's for a little while). I spat out how sick and tired I am of morning afters full of I'm sorry's and how he's grown up and how disgusting it is to me that he has no control over how much he drinks and how THAT was the VERY LAST TIME that I will sit there and take it. I WILL leave my own house to get away from him when he gets like that. And to make a point (and because he brings up that it's not even a weekly occurance, or monthly) I thanked him profusely for not making me deal with it every day, or every week because it's a deal breaker for me.
Then I took down Christmas (left up Winter), and cleaned everything up really good. Mom called to invite us over for dinner and all day long he would come in (he has a massive hill outside for the kids he was adding to, and he cleaned off our roof) to touch me. I know he loves me to pieces, but man. Alcohol.

Joshy used his new "sled"...it's really a death ride contraption ---this thing is more slippery than ice!...and went off of a jump and did a complete sommersault! He landed on his back and was fine (we'll see when he wakes up)...but that was at 8pm last night. Cullen took all 4 sledding and wore em all out good! Then he brought them to McDonalds for hot cocoa. Isn't he cute? They had the best night.

Vacation= 8 days! WHOOO HOOO!! I ran 3 miles and worked out yesterday. My goal today is 3-4 miles. And doing stairs.