Another glimpse...

Have you ever had it happen when heaven gives you a little glimpse of the Full Picture? Sometimes things hit me and I can SEE, just a little bit, but much more than I had seen before.
That happened to me before meeting Shannon and the rest of the chain. When I cried it wasn't because i was NERVOUS necessarily, it was because I knew that it was a BIG THING I was showing up for. I was going to be present and receive a bigger present than anyone knew, or even I knew.

So I was just putting together more love notes for Jane (MFN- you ROCK! THANK YOU!!!!)...one of her own children finally found the courage and the way to try to express their love and gratitude...can you imagine how hard that must be???? Brian did it! I am so, so , so proud of him. I know if he tried to articulate it all it would be bigger than the bible, but his love and gratitude SHINE through.

Anyway, as I was decorating MFN and Brian's pages, heaven gave me a little peek. Of course I have cried reading these, and writing mine. But mostly I can keep it at bay....mostly I can stay *back here* from it, from what I'm doing. From what we are all doing. The time must have been right because I got to see, for one second, what this is going to do for her. I got to see how REALLY TRULY BIG it is, and instantly the love tears came. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be able to handle her thank you for it. If you could see how beautiful this book is, and how much love is in it....that idea that "came" to me from "nowhere" is allowing people to say I Love You, Thank You and Goodbye to her before she goes!!! OMFG. And on the same par is the fact that she gets to HEAR IT, FEEL IT, KNOW IT before she goes!!! O! M! F! G! I've said it in notes over and over and over to people "I hate how we wait til people pass and then sit around telling eachother how great they were" but I got to see how BIG this will be for her soul.....

I love every single person who has contributed, and poured out their hearts! People are beautiful, aren't they just beautiful? If you could read this book....people are beautiful.

So....should I give it to her on Christmas Eve, when we are all dispersing? Or on Christmas for her to read after the house quiets down again? We won't be there late on Christmas Eve, as she tires very very easily. I think we are experiencing The Rally ....another STELLAR day for her yesterday....and it would be just like her to rally Christmas week, make it through Christmas and then go before the New Year starts.

Oh, the missing...