I LOVE TODAY!

I have some friends out there who might not be loving today so much. So I invite them to latch onto my energy and let my love of the day seep into them.
I am sipping on the most fabulous peppermint mocha EVER created. NUM!!!! My ipod is charging which is the best ever because my most fave songs are on there. We have our outfits ready for tomorrows family pics, Ang is coming over for lunch, and I'm not nearly as big as the people on biggest loser= GREAT DAY!!!!!!
I've lit candles- more to scare the smell of a mapled up dead pig out of the house than anything. I don't have Caiden or Ethan here today, so it's Jordan and I and we went shopping and now we're home and I'm about to clean up real good. My breakfast nook is in the house and we now have a LOT more room in the entry way. I HATE to admit it, but it's a little small- I wish the table part were bigger but it's okay. If we lived in a 3 bedroom (those rooms were HUGE!) townhouse for a year, surely we can sit at a smaller table for a little while. I LOVE the nook and I'm SO HAPPY it's in the house!
Now I'm going to address, without them asking, so really it's dishing out, some thoughts regarding some of the sadnesses in my darling friends' lives that they are going through. I'm not saying that what i'm about to say is How It Really Is, but it's what I use in my head so that I can even stay on this earth when there's so much craziness going on.
Ready? Take what works, scrap the rest- hell, scrap it all if you hate it.

I pretend in my head that before we came to earth again, we all made "deals" with eachother, and as we live out our lives, minus the remembering part, our wishes are all fulfilled with and through eachother. Maybe N's mom decided she was going to be The Strongest Woman In The World, and she wanted to show everyone in her life, and even those she doesn't know (like ME!) what it looks like to be that, and to do that. Not that ANY of it has been fun at all, but if dancing with cancer for the 3rd time (right? THIRD TIME!!!?) doesn't scream "I'm so strong, cancer hasn't gotten me yet!" I don't know what is. I'm sorry she had to have surgery(ies), I'm so sorry that she has to go through treatments, I'm so sorry for her tears, and everyone around her's tears. It makes no sense at all, which is why I fall back on my crazy theory that there is a bigger story here.
I hope BJ's biopsy comes back with positive news, and she clearly loves everyone for wanting to not scare and upset everyone for as long as she could. Please let me know as soon as you hear something!
As for Cullen's mom- she's a walking miracle. There just is nothing to be sad about. It SUCKS watching her go, little by little, but in a way it will be a relief to know that she's whole again. She can't do anything but sleep, and eat sometimes and it irritates her and frustrates her and it's terrible to know that. I want her to be all better. She has shown us what determination is. She's made it DOUBLE past what they said she would! MIRACLES!!!!!!!! She is loved and supported by so many. She's been a gift to us, and she will continue to be even after she leaves her body. That's when the love is really going to pour out! MAGIC!
Okay. For real. My hair smells like a pig rolled in syrup and I have to shower. Irritating. I hate getting clean. HAHAH! I'm just kidding. I don't, it just sounded like it so I went with it.
Ride on my energy, I have enough to share. I'll carry you through with love!