I GOT A BREAKFAST NOOK! WHOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!! We found one at Fleet Farm! SCORE! They are a HUGE pain in the butt to put together though so it isn't up yet. :) Did I tell you about the creepy guy at Sears?
That sounded like I have ADD but really it's relevant, and interesting (to me) how things go on that we don't see but we FEEL.
Here goes- went in to see if they had any of their nooks on display and they didn't. So I found a guy who knew stuff and asked him. Immediately, it was uncomfortable. He wasn't attractive- slicked back hair, thinning on top, but that wasn't it. It was something about the way he looked at me. He didn't look me up and down, but whatever it was felt ICKY. Jordan and I were with him for a whole 5 minutes. In that time I learned he lives in Bloomington also, married with 6 kids, they moved. His ex neighbor just took down his breakfast nook which was custom made and he offereed to check with him to see if he'd sell it to me. He gave me his card. I wanted to throw up when we walked away, the feeling was so gross.
Now, the situation which happened immediately after was comepletely different. We weren't even out of the store yet and another associate, a male -much better looking even, but that doesn't actually matter- called out "Hey! Did you see THE deal of the day?" I wasn't going to buy whatever it was, but I really just wanted to have a normal feeling after such a gross one, and this guy wasn't giving off GROSS vibes. Isn't that WEIRD? I chatted with him for a few minutes about the wicker thing that came in, he showed me that it's normall $120 but since the box it's in is damaged, it's $20. I still dont' have room for it so I didn't buy it, but it was a COMPLETELY different experience. The first guy didn't do ANYTHING outwardly icky, but there was something very icky there, and the second guy didn't do anything different than the first, but there was no ICK there. And it really didn't have anything to do with their appearances (I was just telling you where they ranked on Nicki's scale so that you knew it wasn't some hot guy and I was just nervous around him). Isn't that crazy?
And when we were feeding the homeless, I will bet anything at all that there was a (at the very least) wanna be child molester there. He even talked to the kids, but since he can't touch them we were all safe, but when I served him, the way he looked at me, I thought it right then "Thank God he's in here and these are the only kids around, and they are with ME." I could be wrong- that is pretty damned judgemental, isn't it? Or did I pick up on something? Who knows what we can't see?
I can't wait til my nook is up!
You know how I feel about marriage, in general. But even if I wasn't married to Cullen, and we were "just" dating, for all this time, there is something so awesome and amazingly comforting about having someone who you know so well and who knows you so well, isn't there? Is there anything better than being completely connected to the person you are with? I love that feeling so much. It's like the feeling of climbing into bed and feeling their warm body, but it happens during the day, when you're laying your head in their lap watching the game, or going out to eat with your darling and well behaved children (Thank God). Or shopping. Or letting the kids help decorate the house and you catch him looking at you. *dreamy sigh*
Suzanne is home from the hospital as of yesterday. She's high risk for a stroke. Her tear isn't growing but it isn't shrinking yet, her INR is where it should be for now, and hopefully it will start healing. She's still doing daycare, but with help. NO SEX. NO DRIVING. NO EXCITEMENT. It's huge that her blood pressure doesn't increase at all. Thank God she's okay but I'm still scared. Cleaning was hard without her there, and Rich teared up talking about how her headache just hurts here and there's nothing they can do for that. And how scared he is that she'll have a stroke and how he doesn't know what he'd do without her. :(
Happy Winter! I love the sun and the snow.
I can't decide if I should book us- as a family- a vacation in Florida for February or not.
XO
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