Anticipation

I swear that I have a good grip on this stupid surgery. I want it. I know my life will be better after it. So why, why, WHY am I the most emotional stupid girl in the world?! It's ridiculous. EVERYTHING makes me cry. It feels like the world's worst case of PMS. Shopping for some cute jams just in case I actually want to wear them in the hospital made me cry. I had to hide in a dressing room and get a grip. I couldn't walk by the baby clothes even though I don't want a baby, just because it reminded me of all the work my uterus has done for me. STUPID! Today at Valleyfair we stood in line for 1.5 hours to find out that Josh wasn't tall enough even though he went on all the other 48" tall rides, and I teared up. Everytime I get annoyed, I cry. I can't STAND THIS!!!!!! I am so annoying.SIGH.