Oh, look. Blabbermouth still needs to blab!

I still feel very, very sad that I made my whole other blog go away, but I guess it's good practice in letting material things go, right?

Today is so yummy outside that I can't get enough. I'd pay money for a willow tree to sit under right now. It's 60-something degrees, there's a breeze, the sky is BLUE, the coffee is GOOD and I LOVE THIS WORLD.

Yesterday was the Hayes party and it was really good. We were at the park for 8 hours and I have no idea why I was so tired but I went to take a 'nap' at 8:30pm and Cullen attempted to wake me up but I slept til 8am this morning. :) It was incredible! I haven't done that in a million years. Cullen will say differently, of course.

The fourth of July weekend is coming up. We'll see my dad's aunt- her sister, my grandma, has alzheimers and is completely gone upstairs and has been for a long time. But my dad's aunt...she's 2 years younger (in their 90's, no less) and still has her wits about her. She's slowed down some, but lives independently. That's amazing to me.

I'm wondering about marriage lately. I'm married. I'll stay married. I love Cullen, but I'm looking around and wondering why 50% of marriages fail, and why even more than that would if people stopped staying together for the kids. When I think about it in BROAD terms (this has nothing to do with my own marriage necessairily), marriage is silly. I mean, we pair up, swear to stay together through everything and anything, and then- again, in general- spend the rest of our lives trying to be happy. Let's face it- we all fight about the same things, right? Money, drinking, not enough help, etc, etc.....there are those with bigger issues, like abuse and unfaithfulness, and those who's are probably calmer where it takes ALOT to ruffle feathers.
Oh, sure, the Bible says we are suposed to get married, but let's pretend that in general, we didn't get married. First, we'd smash that divorce percentile to pieces. I don't know what would happen- I was just going to say something about kids having step brothers and sisters and parents to no end, but I supose they already do, don't they? And who says that we wouldn't stay with the person we chose anyway? But it would take alot of the pressure off, and maybe we wouldn't be so mad about some things if we fundamentally knew that we were staying because we want to and not because to not stay points at a divorce, or not to make God "happy", or because this is our bed and now we have to lie in it, for the rest of our lives.
Just thinking out loud. Like I said, things are good here, so I'm not saying that I wish I didn't have to be married, but it's interesting to me that we can't figure out what is "wrong"...I don't think it's that people give up too easy. I also don't believe that we should have to stay where we aren't happy. Some people get married for the wrong reasons altogether anyways, right? In the beginning it's wrong, and it won't ever be right. And I haven't even mentioned CHILDREN yet and how you throw a couple of those into the mix and GOOD LUCK! What takes a village, we insist on keeping in tight little family circles, and we just don't understand why things go wrong. Just interesting to think about. I'm sure I won't be around when we start to figure it out and make changes that will lead to happier and more productive families, but that's okay because I'm a part of one right now anyway.

Jordan is in trouble for having a tantrum and throwing his cup of cereal all over. He's currently snuggled up to Josh, who felt bad for him and sat with him in time out. It's too cute. I almost hate to go enforce the fact that he has to clean up his mess now. : ) But I will. See ya later, peace and quiet!